... no. If I'd died there, I wouldn't remember it.
[ slowly, she traces the scar running down her face, across her eye. ]
I survived that, somehow. But ...
[ the memory is pretty certain, even with the way it cuts off abruptly at the end. ]
I don't know how. I can't remember anything after that. Just remembering that at all is an effort, with the encryptions placed on me. But there was no way I could have fought her off, after that, and it's doubtful she suddenly decided to show mercy and spare me after everything.
[The shock has run its course, allowing Sanji to pull back from his concern long enough for questions. Normally he'd remember his place, take his time or decide not to ask anything at all -- but the mystery has his eyes narrowed on her]
You said "encryptions" -- meaning you were made to forget?
... They killed everyone else, but even though I managed to get away, I didn't make it out unscathed. Until relatively recently, I couldn't access these memories without a lot of effort, and at great risk at that.
[ so yes, something made her forget, and someone really wanted this incident covered up. ]
I knew it happened. I just couldn't actively remember anything about it.
I'm a Doll. I'm meant to carry out whatever orders and missions humans decide to assign me to. But that was my first and only official mission. I was working for NatSec, then.
[ at the back of her mind a program blares a warning at her. it doesn't matter. it's been defanged enough.
not quite a mention of what it is she's doing now, though, considering whoever it was that had compromised the mission leading to the butterfly incident, that didn't want any witnesses leading back to them. ]
... Before recently, I wouldn't have even been able to speak about this in anything but vague generalizations.
[Something... crosses Sanji's face, a vaguely ill look of someone who is not so unfamiliar with the general concept of Dolls -- and he is forced to look away, breathing quietly through his nose.]
You... you have to serve humans then?
[It's very clear that's not the answer he's hoping to hear]
[... Breathing slow, and quietly, even though it's obvious his expression has already been noted and there's no way to hide how discontent he suddenly feels]
Aa... got it.
[And for a beat, he doesn't know what else to say. "sorry" would be... stupid]
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Date: 2020-07-02 12:34 am (UTC)[ slowly, she traces the scar running down her face, across her eye. ]
I survived that, somehow. But ...
[ the memory is pretty certain, even with the way it cuts off abruptly at the end. ]
I don't know how. I can't remember anything after that. Just remembering that at all is an effort, with the encryptions placed on me. But there was no way I could have fought her off, after that, and it's doubtful she suddenly decided to show mercy and spare me after everything.
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Date: 2020-07-04 03:33 am (UTC)You said "encryptions" -- meaning you were made to forget?
[The hell.]
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Date: 2020-07-04 04:24 am (UTC)[ so yes, something made her forget, and someone really wanted this incident covered up. ]
I knew it happened. I just couldn't actively remember anything about it.
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Date: 2020-07-06 08:43 pm (UTC)[It's just. openly prying at this point, to sate his curiosity. He rewinds the memory in his head, squinting at it for clues]
I mean, it sounds like high-risk, high-reward shit that the general public wouldn't know anything about.
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Date: 2020-07-07 04:25 pm (UTC)[ at the back of her mind a program blares a warning at her. it doesn't matter. it's been defanged enough.
not quite a mention of what it is she's doing now, though, considering whoever it was that had compromised the mission leading to the butterfly incident, that didn't want any witnesses leading back to them. ]
... Before recently, I wouldn't have even been able to speak about this in anything but vague generalizations.
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Date: 2020-07-10 09:35 pm (UTC)You... you have to serve humans then?
[It's very clear that's not the answer he's hoping to hear]
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Date: 2020-07-12 02:48 am (UTC)Dolls were made to protect humanity.
[ it's singsonged out, light and soft, gentle and lilting. it's sharp like a dagger's edge, wrapped finely in silk. ]
We were made to follow orders.
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Date: 2020-07-12 03:28 am (UTC)Aa... got it.
[And for a beat, he doesn't know what else to say. "sorry" would be... stupid]
... Are you going back to that life?
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Date: 2020-07-12 04:00 am (UTC)[ relax, sanji, there's at least a little good news. ]
No, but I'm what you might call a special case.